What made E!’s recent star-focused documentary What Would Ryan Lochte Do? palatable is the fact the Lochte is a goof and knows he’s a goof. But the project initially was conceived of by Ke$ha and Sebert before the raw footage was shaped by its eventual producers, a feeling reflected in Ke$ha’s obvious awareness of what she wants the footage to convey from the start.

Sebert was aided by filmmaker Steven Greenstreet in the project, and the two were part of a very minimal crew so everything would be filmed with a natural feel. Those who already are fans of Ke$ha will appreciate the all-access pass, since the primary filmmaker is indeed her brother (he throws in a few bits of home video content and narrates at the start before Ke$ha takes over), even though him zooming in on her making out with someone at a club feels a little weird. STORY: Ke$ha, Flaming Lips Collaborating on Album

My Crazy Beautiful Life seems to want to prove that despite all of the seemingly shallow and party-centric content - the glitter, the auto-tuning, the neon and robotics Ke$ha produces - that her message of “be yourself” is what makes it all elevated to something worthwhile. “Knowing she went through what I’m going through is so important,” says a young boy from England who says he doesn’t fit in at school and cries after meeting her. The documentary spends a lot of time focusing on her adoring fans, especially those moved to tears by her performances. That’s the thing about Ke$ha - even in moments that should feel relatable, it’s hard to take her seriously because of how seriously she seems to take herself. “He’s always been my muse, though,” the (at the time) 24-year-old says, later hiding under a blanket in the passenger seat of her brother’s car as they drive by her ex’s house. While the first half of the inaugural episode focuses on Ke$ha’s partying ways (with the oft-refrain “let’s get drunk!”), it then slows down as she takes in an unimpressed New York Times review of one of her shows, laments about her being bullied by celebrity gossip blogger Perez Hilton (who released nude photos of her and has made several pointed attacks) and wanders along Venice Beach woefully recounting the lost love in her life whom she met when she was 18 and who wanted her “to settle down and have babies.” But of course, life on the road called. STORY: Ke$ha Talks Smoking ‘Glitter’ With Snoop, Drinking Her Own Urine

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